'You will recognize your own path when you come upon it, because you will suddenly have all the energy and imagination you will ever need.’
~ Jerry Gillies ~
I had a great idea. I felt great inspiration, yet I had some obstacles to overcome. The main one being my own worries and fears, doubts and insecurities. I have always been a rather strong individual, yet it has usually masked a self doubting person. Stepping out on such an endevour let all of the fears and insecurities creep in before I took my first step.
These are the fears which created my greatest hesitations:
This is the biggest venture I have had in building a website other than a family website. Would I be able to make a website that didn't look overwhelmingly silly? It meant sharpening my skills in html and css. Learning php, learning mysql, and hoping it would all fit together and function without sending visitors to cyber oblivion.
Making this website is a big commitment. That can be scary. Can I really stick to it? Will I be able to do all I say I am committing to?
What if noone even sees my site? What if people do and think I am totally whacko? (Yes this is when all of the insecurity questions popped into my head)But then I remembered that although I hope this is a successful adventure as far as the website and inspiring others, this is about giving and the experience I have in the process. This is about a journey of discovery.....not my ego. Thus those worries are all mute.
I had to let go of all the worries I listed above and just dive in. Something I will always be grateful for, because the journey has only begun and it is already more than I expected.