I finished my year. Was it what I expected? No was it more? Yes. I learned a lot about me, a lot about life, and a lot about people.
I have learned so much and I honestly do believe that the good that has happened in my life has come from my attention to being positive and reaching outside of myself.
I have had a fantastic journey in all of this. I didn’t end as fantastic as I started, because I started in one stage of life and ended in another. (I started when my kids were not living with me and ended with them living with me). Suddenly I had no free time, my attitude didn’t change, but as a single mom with three children, I didn’t have the time I had originally to devote to this site. I found myself still persuing my goal but with very little time to keep the site up to date. I became frustrated. Then I encountered times I doubted myself and this project.Â
Eventually,Â my actions became more of an evolution of teaching…and my devotion was in sharing what I had learnedÂ with my kidsÂ -Â Â more attention on sharing the giving with my kids than devoting time to the site. When you start doing this, you want to share, and for me that came in wanting toÂ share with my kids…mostly through example. I don’t believe in making anyone do anything……but to inspire through example. I can’t think of any belief I was forced to accept that I took on freely, but I found many things in life that I pursued through being inspired.
When I see my kids getting awards for turning found money in, when I see my kids joining causes to support charity, I know my actions are doing something good. Especially since none of it has come from prompting from me. They, at their young ages have just felt the desire to do these things all on their own. Is it through my example? Maybe not. Kids are inherently giving and caring. But I do know they do pick up on it, from their comments. My 9yr old is very proud of this site, and always gives suggestions of things I might want to do.
I suppose I failed in my initial goal of recording everything I did original goal ( yes idealistic). But I do believe I also surpassed it in having it become a part of my life without thinking. I slowed my life down from the “Me! Me! Me!”which this world pushes at us and became someone that paused to look around at those around me and think. I slowed down to notice. I always cared, but slowing down I was able to really see and feel where I fit in, and how even the smallest act does mean something. We all make an impact even in what may seem as a small way. What may seem small to one…may be HUGE to another. Don’t ever take it for granted.
What I have learned and experienced can’t be summed up in a blog, especially since I became so lax in recording what transpired with many of my acts of kindness. It is honestly hard to sum up in words ( but eventually I will try).
What I can say…is … that it is something everyone should try and the rewards are plentiful. What you learn about yourself alone should be motivation. So I do dare everyone to try……..reach out….just start.
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